## Thoughts ### Per Episodes 1 I started just watching it because I want to be more in touch with my emotions and I want a long lasting sense of leisure I can engage with. I was tempted to try clannads but I want a really good experience for that one, and right now I'm just in the corner of my couch watching I even almost started thinking like a film buff, questioning why some shots were done the way they were, the way they're revealing information to us. rei waifu 2 this was the part i remember interesting how auntie is just playing a facade lectio divina, what headspace do you need to be in? 3 holy shit hes already so lifeless he got punched for no reason wtf 💀 questioning motives because of absence of pressure and even disregard because of it so much responsibility to a kid preparing so hard just to tremble what does that lack of phonecall mean? what is shinji doing this for? is berserk mode him 4 his moral responsibility and empathy finally got to see her other side, but it does seem like its out of tough love so many long scenes is she implying shes also a hedgehog? 5 all thumbs at living? ia she more tsundere than shinji bruj what is rei to shinjis dad of course a scene like this happened 😭😭 6 her pilot is her link to everyone... and is nothing without it hmm 7 attempt at sabotage by blonde? is misato making 8 misato really is a strategist damn i love the facial expressions lmaoo yay 2nd child here asuka is such a contrast from rei 9 such an ominous final scene, horror turned physical tension turned pity everyone saying its the only thing they have why is this guy so oppressive with his flirting 😭 10 wow with the way everyone was speaking i was kind of expecting her to die there cool how even what was seemingly insifi 11 pulling miracles out of their ass not sure what to think of it doing something as responsible and grand as saving the world, but not finding any personal meaning 13 interesting to hear the human aspect of the ai machines and how they still greatly resemble the creator. what themes is this? 14 seales prophecy i was wondering why shinjis dad was so calm, i felt like everything is expected for him maybe thats also why rei is? 15 is rei playing ignorant? why did she blush at the mother compliment? forgetting is what lets us continue living shit I'm not laughed from anime in a while until Asuka interesting to see the parental governance themes constantly in here surely there's hidden meaning in the kiss so is eva built from angels? why is this the source of the second impact on 16 inner monologue about the selves being saved by mother caused berserk mode why are people genuinely afraid they'll never forgive then? why does she know the secret despite not being high rank? smell of blood is the sea? is it being powered by humans? 17 nezt human is jock dude? rei is a human robot trained on the angels? 18 why was he chosen? pure physical ability? was he lifeless because he knew this would be part of the plan? maybe it's better shinji didn't know? the beginning of moral questioning? i got chills, that delivery was so terrifying the lack of control, the trauma 19 what the fuck just happened in this episode Shinji wanting to disappear for good and feeling more resolve than ever the absolute horror of seeing your crew members die in combat shinji having no free will, always going back to help others people terrified of the awakened version, its plating??? what does it listen to? why Shinji 20 he remembers when mother died was he there or is he one? What is this embodied connection with everyone else what the fuck just happened can i even sleep tension in the team? is he alluding to his death rei was artificial creation from the Eva? 21 im scared to watch the last episodes 😭😭😭 woah background dump seele is yui mom so theyre recreating the god that destroyed antartica surely theres similarities with the mom and rei?? 22 how did she die??? from rei or from consequences? that is very unexpected though rei just as a parrot? even other characters see resemblance? 24 crazy how much shes being affected, everything isnt going her way asuka is just completely absorbed by ego what is the spear? why was saving 2 so important? being an artificial human is fucked were they hiding so they could create another? why else would it be top secret? 25 rei herself is an eva??? really?? the 5th child is a seele spy? seele is the germans? they had adam in the ship because it was used for 02 did he intentionally warm up shinji for him to be hesitant? wtf just happened hes an angel, rei has similar powers, adam was a fake one, who has adam? the final angel? so there were 14? is this a religious thing? 26 i am very confused merging of hearts, is this just taking place in shinjis mind? 27 reminds me of the cognitive science ideas ive been interested in agapic love #### movie what the fuck did i just witness, i saw the lock and i assumed it to be him in a washroom, but not literally beside her... i think this plays into the younfness as soon as asuka came at peace with her eva and mom, she faced the goriest death imaginable i didnt feel tears or anything, but wow i think this shows i really like abstract anime i wonder how rooted it is with christian origins ### Rating ### Personal Significance - Was also just coincidentally making notes on [[After Socrates Episode 5 - Finite Transcendence Dr. John Vervaeke]], got genuine goosebumps when the transcript started talking about how we're different to computers because we care and are adaptive, reminded me of some of the concepts in the anime - interesting how these ideas are easy to understand, but portraying them through this story makes them much more memorable and interesting - you're compelled to better understand these philosophical ideas Shinji feels like he is nothing without his ability to pilot the eva Glad it feels disconnected and he lives a normal life but for some reason he Jesus to continue despite I'm saying he doesn't want to he still fails to be intimate and accepting of others and feels like he It's a waste of space that needs to be careful around people to make sure they like them because he isn't able to like himself makes me think about how he continuously has to make the choices why did not always being his best interest that although this path to helping the world feels very Extreme and heavy through it is able to profoundly connect with others and discover himself I wasn't as sad because there wasn't any major deaths to the main characters, but what strikes me is just these extreme moments of human emotions like when Rei self-destructed to save Shinji It's kind of a place for contemplation because you explore these universal truths and there's no concrete answer but you're able to find your own interpretation that feels most real to you first time in a while where I've just been able to watch something at one time speed and it's nice as a break as a leisure but I don't know if it really helped me better here adopt these things how can I internalize Evangelion? through lectio divina? that final quote about human connection is interesting because it's at such a low bar for requirements to make all this pain and suffering worth it especially meaningful you consider his head space ### Themes - **to be altruistic is to be deeply aware of your mortality and insignificance** can already comprehend these ideas but never thought of human hearts as being lonely by default because of a lack of a disconnect reality is our truth, and we have a choice to be happy, is his answer to depression? why did he consciously come out of the merged consciousness? even though humans can hurt each other, sometimes they choose not to, and that is what makes human interaction worthwhile? jung influence through collective unconscious when we lower our heart barriers? https://www.reddit.com/r/TrueAnime/comments/anutn1/jung_and_neon_genesis_evangelion_a_tale_of/ wiki https://www.reddit.com/r/anime/comments/l28x0g/rewatchspoilers_neon_genesis_evangelion_the_end/ philosophies https://philosophy-of-megaten.fandom.com/wiki/Neon_Genesis_Evangelion ### Memorable Scenes ### What I enjoyed ### What I disliked ### Similar