--- ## Notes/Brainstorming ### **✨** In My Life **Ending the conflict between traditional job security and creatorpreneurship** Content creation has an infinite scale \*\* - Scale is limitless as long as you have the vision - Necessity would allow me to push myself - Content creator grind - SAP - It's a low acceptance internship and people on my school's discord are talking about how they got rejected - Little bit egotistical - Bought PTYA and ship 30 for 30 - Expensive but I have nothing else to do with my money and would like to reinvest it into the source - Deep analysis ### **🔗** Links to Thinks - Deep reset - 48 laws of power - How to do nothing - Content creation - Found this video to be memorable, a good inspiration for my second channel - Leverages the popularity of a video game and it's associated stereotypes, but alongside meaningful twists ### **🚀** Actionable Tingz - Eating a pepper - acceptance - discomfort - Having time for appreciation - Spotify - Cold outreach - Been messaging content creators larger than me, been flatout rejected B) - Made me curious about 48 laws of power, how to win friends and influence people - Nice wake up call from my fortunate opportunities with tiago forte and andrew kirby - Initial one was offsetting due to my codependent nature but it's slowly gotten better - Going to continue, just to have discussions and potential collaborations - Thread a day - Missed Friday, but am trying to do this so I can: - brainstorm content for potential videos - get used to consistently writing - start resurfacing the content of my vault more often, been a teaching about the second brain methodology a bit too much that I haven't been able to do it much myself 😅 ### **🤔** Food For Thought - Lowering your bar for self-actualization - Dash of minimalism and beliefs ### 😤 My Ramblings - Feel like pivoting into content creation - Feel like it's the new wave ## Publishing Copy Welcome to another edition of _Weekly Wondering_, a sacred time where I share the resonating links, reflections and learnings from my past week to influence your next one ;) A lot has happened recently, so let's dive in! ### **✨** In My Life [[Ending the conflict between traditional job security and creatorpreneurship]] **Cold outreach** If I'm going to take content creation seriously, I'll need to find more people to talk about it and grow with. Aside from these upcoming courses, I've also been messaging creators larger than me that I admire. All to no success 😎 It was offsetting at first due to my codependent nature and shattering of my bold visualizations, but stoicism and exposure has made it easier to tolerate. But on the flipside it revealed a new weakness: my horrendous networking and traditional socialization skills 🤪 And so I guess that's going to be something new I'll try to work on, diving deep into books like How to Win Friends and Influence people and The 48 Laws of Power. It was a nice wake up call from my unexpected fortunate opportunities with Tiago Forte and Andrew Kirby. For the sake of pushing myself out of my comfort zone in the hopes of meaningful discussions and potential collaborations, I'll continue puhsing onwards! ### **🔗** Links to Thinks **The Deep Reset** ### **🚀** Actionable Tingz **Writing a thread a day on Twitter** I missed Friday, but am trying to do this so I can: - brainstorm content for potential videos - get used to consistently writing - start resurfacing the content of my vault more often, been a teaching about the second brain methodology a bit too much that I haven't been able to do it much myself 😅 If you want to see my unpolished thoughts, you can follow [here](https://twitter.com/johnmavrick_yt) :) **Seeking mindfulness and discomfort through peppers** The CEO of the company I'm interning for finds pleasure in seeing his employees suffer. One day, he came in with a mysterious plant and placed it behind my desk before entering his office. Upon further inspection, it was a gift of death. Instead of some new office decoration, it was riddled with the hottest peppers in the world: carolina reapers and ghost peppers, which are both over 1 million scovilles (a jalapeno is only 8500-10,000 😵). Somehow we managed to find a less spicier pepper, a habanero, which is still 10-30x spicier than a jalapeno at 100k-350k scoviles 😭 We split it between the two of us. To test the waters, I took a small piece smaller the size of a and started chewing on it. Upon my first piece, tears started streaming down my face. It was unlike any spice or pain I'd experienced. There was no milk, so all I could do was tolerate these fiery sensations. But that's when a silly realization came to fruition: _What a perfect time to practice acceptance and mindfulness!_ I tried to tap into my inner Marcus Aurelius, observing the spiciness as a mere feeling I was experiencing. Instead of wanting for it to end, I accepted it's complete dominance over my taste buds and throat. Eventually, it faded, and the spice level was tolerable enough to focus on going back to coding 😅 But it didn't end there. My self-discipline has been deteriorating, and I think most of it has to do with my rising preference for effortless and hedonistic activities. So what better way to overcome it than by seeking discomfort? I took larger bites as I approached the spicier part of the pepper. Each peak spice level continued increasing, and at times I questioned why I did this to myself. But I persevered. Deliberately choosing to pain myself and get accustomed with inconvenience. Out of everything I've done the past week, it's probably been the most frictionful thing I've accomplished. Even though it provided no tangible benefit other than a story to tell, I feel like it was a good step to tap into the power of a crucial traits for mental trait: acceptance. ### **🤔** Food For Thought **Lowering your bar for reaching self-actualization** Maslow's hierarchy of needs is a pyramid that outlines the different levels of needs a person has. It starts off with more primitive requirements that support physical survival, then slowly progresses to more mental and spiritual kinds of health.  I claim to be on the path to self-actualization, but if you were to look at my life then my foundation of the levels would be rather questionable. Physiological is a given or else I wouldn't be typing this out. My safety is fine, but I don't necessarily have good health considering my eating habits and fitness frequency 😅 I also live much more frugally than people usually do in my age demographic, living a more minimalist life. I cut off most of my friends with a typical INFJ doorslam, and I've put relationships on the backburner of my priorities. My self-esteem and confidence is subpar, especially in terms of social capabilities as I've shut myself in 😭 But despite the above, I feel like most of my attention can be sustainably focused on self-actualization. Maybe in a sense, by putting so much focus on the top, then you unconsciously also work towards further refining the bottom. ### 😤 My Ramblings On my way back from a cousin hangout, I was waiting at a bus stop underdressed in the cold, hands freezing and an hour to kill. Here was my stream of consciousess during that time just exploring the ideas of a book I was reading during: so I've been reading this book called how to do nothing and in it, the author claims that, in the attention economy were living in right now where we have the ability to spend all of our waking and just total hours in a day on productive work, it's even more important to learn how to do nothing kind of as a break from it all, to release the tension of deadlines and survival expectations and just to admire the surroundings that we tend to neglect as we focus on the future and our goals instead of the interconnectedness of the internet they suggest to admire nature and our local surroundings that spending this time doing nothing helps us truly be present, being someone who has lots of goals and likes to plan their whole day from start to finish with productive tasks, I would say that I've been neglecting this aspect of my life I have been able to practice it on my walk back home as I just focus on my local environment, but I feel like I could be doing it more often in a more intentional way that isn't solely due to the fact that I have to go home I think instead I should just try to make my default for these times where I'm transitioning between an environment like transit or waiting in between a task to genuinely do nothing to notice my surroundings like how the bus station I'm under has a curved roof with support bars under it to observe the people who pass by me, their posture, their ethnicity to realize the fact that today was Remembrance Day and that I should, you know, pay respects to the purpose of this holiday it's times like this where I can just not focus about the future and worry and just experience living it's making me question how far I need to push myself for these goals because I already landed an internship at arguably one of the biggest companies in the world I have a product making passive income as I just sit here and talk to my phone I have plenty of close friends that I've somewhat drifted away from as I focus on my goals I guess this does have to do with my personality and my own ambition but at the same time I feel like there should always be some sense of balance it's times like these right have the opportunity to turn on my voice to text and just blow it out whatever is on my mind sometimes it helps me with spontaneous ideas that further enhance my understanding of the world, helps me reflect on events that happen through the day, just gives me time to sit and ponder I've fallen into the trap of always chasing the next big thing without really spending the time to appreciate the big things I've already experienced like I have not celebrated at all for my internship at sap, for hitting 6,000 subscribers, instead I've just been trying to push myself to level up my skills by taking these courses and following these trends for some form of online success and I think I should just be questioning my values more I guess because in the end I'm the one who's in control of what I do and if I decide to isolate myself like I somewhat have been, my main source of interaction mostly being my coworkers and cousins as much as I say that I am looking for driven people and that my standards are high, maybe I should lower them for a bit and just change the curation of the people I spend my time with there's just so many ways to go about this concept of life, from the things I'm saying on this note right now to the way I move my body to what I think about too more long-term things like my overall direction, it's just very interesting to say the least i feel like the closest I've been to this state was when I did psychedelics and I think I'm kind of happy with me trying to reach a similar state without the use of substances it's when I just truly let my mind free from all feelings and assumptions and judgment to let it wander around