--- ## Notes/Brainstorming ### ✨ In My Life ### **🔗** Links to Thinks - Obsessed with the self, but also important to consider a much more influential role in our life, the other person - [[You Are Always the Other Person]] - [[Mindfulness Means Letting Things Surprise You]] - i have adhd symptoms - while watching a hypnosis video, was always thinking about something else - hypnosis can probably help with me lowering my default mode network - we can only be surprised when we have some attention towards it - Becoming a quirky art kid - [[Influencer Courses Are Garbage The Dark Side of Content Creation]] - [[Blue Period]] - Went from creating content for intrinsic reasons, to seeing it as an occupation, back to wanting to do it for intrinsic reasons - In a directionless rut recently - Rekindled the passion I have in life - Why am i half-assing my job - Psychedelics podcast - Interesting how ideas of self-actualization are most talked about in these communities - Shrooms are for the mind like what the microscope is for biology - https://rossgriffin.com/essays/you-dont-want-to-be-famous/ - Interested to see how my rambles on content creation would be perceived, and i guess this was an example - Always nice to hear opposing opinions on the selling points people try to persuade you with ### **🚀** Actionable Tingz - Reading for application and exploration - In content creation i want to try telling more personal stories, so i'm going to re-read [[{ Storyworthy]] - Struggled finding resources on self-actualization, so going to read [[Transcend]] - REALLY excited to read this, first time in a while where I am deeply curious about a book's topic - At a point where taking action is more important than reading ### **🤔** Food For Thought - Rock climbing - Continuous comparisons of myself with other people - This person is so jacked, why is he not doing harder ones - This person is a bit heavier, how are they so good at rock climbing - I can do 20 pull ups, why can i not get up easily with my forearms? - I'm short compared to everyone else, i wish i was taller - i never compare to my previous self, i always compare to other people - it's kind of good since i reach for expectations beyond what i could maybe come up with myself, but at the same time, it can sap the mindfulness i have in the present moment like above - does it harm me more than it helps me? - a beginners mindset - all i'm trying to do is just get to the top - but i watch some youtube videos and they go into the activity in such mindful detail - mentally focusing on certain parts of your body during the climb - different positional techniques and terms to use as little energy as possible - novelty vs trying the same things again - Tend to get the same food at home and when I'm eating out - Breakfast is a banana / mixed berries / chocolate smoothie - Lunch consists of greens, air fried breaded protein, and an egg - Dinner is a rotation based on my aunt's cooking - Eating out, I like to go to the asian supermarket to get sushi if I'm cheap - It makes sense if I - I've already experienced these foods, so what's the point of getting it again - Won't the idea of tolerance apply to my sensations? Needing more to get the same level of enjoyment? - How do I find enjoyment when I already expect it? is it just because of the biological satisfaction from fat, salt, and carbs? - I can take [[Mindfulness Means Letting Things Surprise You]] into account - That isn't the only new thing. - The same experience will not happen. Try to notice the slight changes. - Balancing hobbies - Cap depending on their purpose in your life - Improvement - VALORANT - Bouldering - Chess - [[Content creation depth vs breadth]] ### 😤 My Ramblings - Goal setting - telling people about my goals with complete confidence yet not reaching them - Ended up getting side tracked, doing something else I wanted to pursue (a new youtube video + reading) - My most progress was when i had a big vision, but continued to chip away at it through systems like finding the right resources them timeblocking - Finances - Spent some time planning out how much I want to save this year, how much I will allow myself to spend - But it's hard to keep track of monthly expenses when you pay for things like annual subscriptions - In what ways does being so objective with your money only make you more confined and chained to it? - The goal of financial freedom is to live without having to worry about money, and sure doing so will help me in the future, but i dont know, i just don't feel like it is worth the effort OR i need to find a better system - To be fair, all I do have is a monthly expenses/subscriptions tracker on notion - why does td have to be so bad qq - How much should you value experiences spent with friends and family? - Learning japanese - Listen to a lot of jpop, and the music and tone alone shares emotions - What if I were to actually understand? What extra level of depth would I experience? - Same could be said in anime, I can immerse myself and understand it better - But learning a language is different from what i've been doing - Could be a nice skill to pick up to expand my learning repoirtoire considering i haven't learned any instrument either - Starting to realize that I'm not committing to things - Keeping options open, not having a firm belief due to an open mind - Innate indecisiveness - The fact that there's multiple answers or resolutions, not everything is black and white - Find myself staring into the abyss for a lot of these - Best way to find out though is definitely action - Sure I don't need to commit, but I should do so until the point where I get enough feedback where I can make meaningful judgements, on whether I should continue or if i should pivot - In case of me postponing my tiktok and twitch, I should at least try it to see how I feel - If I don't try, then this though will continue lingering in my mind - The altruisticness of content creation - These jot notes are enough for me to understand the ideas I had in the moment, but they won't be enough for other people - What is the fine line between the two? - Yet another gray area :((( - Differing perspectives - Cousin is an ISFP, lives much more in the moment to have fun - Filipinos are typically ESFP, entertainers, trying to be the heart of the party - I do find myself catering to this when i am in a group setting, but one on ones or alone i'm a hard INFJ - I think i do see the need for other perspectives - I think i just value xnfx relationships because maybe i didn't have them in my early years, but having people who are more sensing and spontaneous help me indirectly see the world in a new light - My personal branding - Video essays about anime to talk about personal experiences - Person talked about minecraft in a relatable way, then added his personal story, then added a life lesson - Was watching a bouldering YouTuber and he had a very calm voice and channel vibe with jazz music - Good contrast from the overhyped mrbeast and other creator videos that i thought were ideal for "retention", but turns out that such soothing videos can be just as watchable - ended up just dumping all ideas I had during newsletter - not a bad buffer, but should get back into the habit of doing so in my daily journals lmao - how do you find the right balance between consumption and creation - the problem is that i'm already watching people who have consumed and are sharing their thoughts, so it would be weird to reference their work - If anything i should tackle it from a different angle + still credit them ## Publishing Copy Welcome to another edition of _Weekly Wondering_, a sacred time where I share the resonating links, reflections and learnings from my past week to influence your next one ;) ### **✨** In My Life ### **🔗** Links to Thinks ### **🚀** Actionable Tingz ### **🤔** Food For Thought ### 😤 My Ramblings ### My Tools for Learning and Growth I record everything I mention in my newsletters in my Obsidian, my favorite note-taking and productivity app. If you want to aggregate the valuable gems from your week like this, or need a place to store your ideas and highlights, you can set up your own [second brain](https://johnmavrick.gumroad.com/l/obsidian-starter-vault). 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