### 2024-10-28 - had a 3 day break because of other morning commitments, so today felt a bit rough but was still able to be effortful and receptive through it all - still feel like i need more nuanced understanding for the next part ### 2024-10-21 - Started new practices from [[After Socrates Episode 4 - Reverse Engineering the Dialectic Dr. John Vervaeke]] - Trying to actively go against the objective view, and merge into the transjective. I can't self-correct super consciously because that wouldn't be as ### 2024-10-16 - I seem to be shy when practicing with someoen present in the area, especially for verbal ones like the humility wonder practice ### 2024-10-13 - ended up skipping the rooting practice, and did it at the couch with windows open - not bad imo ? - first time i opened my eyes to check time ### 2024-10-11 - Started doing the practice mentioned in episode 3, when i do that i'm reminded of the turtle noises when ### 2024-10-01 - Did in my room this time since outside is starting to get cold qq - meditation i think the adhd meditation helped me stay focused more since it was something stimulating i could focus on, more than my breath - i did switch back to normal breathing where i felt antsy - maybe i can - even with medication i still found myself thinking about other things just as often - final part felt more powerful because of no distractions - i really like that conscious mindset shift - when i opened my eyes, i felt very awake, feels very quiet, not tempted to blast stimulation, open to wondering and open to the present moment as it is ### 2024-09-30 10 minutes was pretty solid for duration i kept questioning whether I accidentally didn't start the timer because I felt like it already was 10 minutes, and I was close to checking, but thankfully I trusted myself in the end I think my capacity for thoughts to enter my mind and not decrease as a duration went on since I felt more antsy with the timer ending soon. I think I need to learn to not think about the time , The truly enter a state of being rather than doing The rooting exercise was okay. I feel like I missed out on the nuance because I didn't get to read my updated notes, but I still enjoyed feeling that opening and that spatial visualization lastly I enjoyed the beginning of the humble wonder meditation, found a way to distinguish my voice as well, but I wasn't able to fully immerse myself since there was someone in front of me in the backyard but I really did in turn lies and try to feel the embodiment of the humility aspect and even go to glimpse of the wonder as well so overall I really enjoyed it ### 2024-09-28 5 minutes feels very short i think i should try 10 minutes next to try and get to a calmer headspace was able to handle the dog situation quite well also took the time to think about what would be fun to have in the backyard hehe ### 2024-09-26 ### 2024-09-25 still same amount, but very fast in realizing when im no longer focusing on breath im conditioned to wake up from an alarm so i instantly open my eyes lul need to try anisha's technique next time not sure on what i should do from here ### 2024-09-24 was antsy by the end and forgot to slowly transition found myself frequently distracted but quickly labelled and went back i prefer this over ohm? maybe can try both diaphragm and ohmm?? also didnt go on phone much before this, usage feels much more intentional think i can slowly increase minutes each week when i feel better with it? ### 2024-09-23 physical center sensational center balance between fighting and feeding your undesired behavior all these centers, optimal grip 20 minutes morning 20 minutes between dinner and bedtime need to schedule it, befriending yourself so much time on everything but your soul dont practice after a sensory experience I just tested the meditation activities done and I also did it outside in the blue chair, it was hard to breathe deeply, I thought it was because of the way I was sitting but it turns out it is just the capacity of my abdomen, but that felt very calming I think another thing I really enjoyed was just his explanation on how meditation is like building a muscle, and how important it is for us to practically apply it as well, because what is the point of doing all this research and learning about how to become wise if we are not practically applying it It's as silly as reading all the information how to diet and how to do optimal workouts but not to actually physically work out I think this would be a really powerful habit to replace my morning time with, to just literally go outside after I put on my sunscreen and just meditate for the beginning of the day I think that could potentially be a solution for the lethargic feeling I face in the mornings, because now I feel much more aware and intentional previously I was about to go and just place satisfactory when coming back but now I feel a sense of higher order thinking, I felt in touch with my body, I felt at peace, I felt connected with nature and my life once again proving how important mindfulness is for overcoming the system one temptations we may face consistently this helps me use my second brain and other life management systems in a way where a much more aware in mindful. useful for my weekly review that I'm about to do but yeah I think it'd be fun to do a journal log to hold myself accountable as well this is my daily wisdom training