what you are avoiding is what you should be doing journal and be aware of this, reflect after you do to build proof. emotional, intellectual. slowly you learn to shortcut this resistance. awareness. like all things, acceptance is key so you get into a state of growth. this is the key to the YouTube Videos it's self improvement so just focus on one problem try to use space metaphor This is what I use [[Thoughts]] notes for to journal and reflect, then [[Brainstorms]] for trying to problem solve.